We all need a little bit of...

Hey everybody, today I had such a bad morning. And not because I chose to be in a bad mood, but because I came across obstacles that really infuriated me. For as long as I can remember (this year), I always wake up with a smile on my face and prep my day for happiness. This has worked, because I haven't felt this completely happy in a long time. As much as it is always preached that we need to make ourselves happy first, before we can expect happiness to come from another person, a lot of this does not necessarily ring true. Many people's lives are directly affected by the happiness of the people around them, and on how those people make them feel. When your child, mother, sibling, lover, friend is unhappy; what are the chances that you will be completely happy in that moment? Very few, I think.

The world goes around preaching happiness as if it is something difficult to achieve. In my case, I reckon happiness is constant. Like breathing, if I may use this as an example. But then there are external (and often internal) factors that come and cause ripples in this constant. I do not think you loose happiness when you find yourself sad, or angry, or confuse, and the like. You still breathe, but there is a disturbance to the peace that is your happiness. And as soon as things become sunnier again, that constant re-surfaces. It did not go anywhere, you just had your energies focused on something that cause a ripple in your life. I do not want to preach, and everyone is entitle to their own opinion. This is mine and I just hope that it can make sense to someone, or someone can find value in it. There are so many people (including friends of mine) who are confused, hurt and seem unhappy. Something has got to be bigger than that, you just need to find it. We all need this in our lives:

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Love
Sindz

Re-Awakening...

So, this guy on Facebook reminds me that I have a blog, and that I have not blogged in such a long time! I was shocked! Not because he noticed, but because I had forgoted about one of the most important things I do with my time, writing!

Trust that I have good reasons for being so scarce, I was going through very hard times. When they say life has seasons, trust that they are right! It was my season of suffering, I withstood the storm and found myself in sunshine again. After almost a year of challenges, trials, falls, pain, and tears back and forth.

If you think being unemployed is hard, try being unemployed and surviving in Joburg. With no income, no home, no family, no friends (except one) and no food. I went through it all! One will ask me, but why did you not just pack your bags and go home? The answer is: It was not time yet.

I knew it, my family knew it, my boyfriend and best friend knew it. They wondered everyday why I kept holding on to this idea, and I told them that I am no ordinary human being, failure does not make up part of my composition, and they best believe!

Out of that time, the biggest lesson that I learnt was that, God answers all our prayers! No question about it! I found strength that I did not know I possessed, I became focused, composed and hungry to be the best that I can be. I found friends, in the most unlikely of people, I found additional love in people who loved me anyway. I found this Angel, whom I have known for ten years, who wasnt my biggest friend, but she opened up her life for me. She gave me a home, she loved me, she gave me food, she gave me an emotional refuge, she gave me herself. My friend!

I have been re-awakened!

Come on this journey with me, a new journey...